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Voices
01:26
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Sprained Arms
03:33
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gave into frustration
in the middle of the day
hyperventilating
but I couldn’t say
“Jake’s hurt me
hurt me too much
but not physically,
no that’s not enough”
pushed into nettles
pushed by a friend
behind the tents
tethers at ends
someone close
in a few months’ time
will try to hide
that they’re trying to die
sprained arms and finished books
stop giving those dirty looks
what do you mean
“I’m a wuss”?
wiping eyes on sidelines
irrefutable, subtle signs
that it’s not going to change
soon anytime
friends anxious for help
help slowly came
flooded tents
torrential rain
guided at dark
past places before
warm shelter now,
now under shore
a warm place to sleep
a comfortable home
lights lit the floor
we weren’t alone
it’s over so soon
where did it go
my friends from these years
was it for show?
sprained arms and finished books
stop giving those dirty looks
what do you mean
“I’m a wuss”?
wiping eyes on sidelines
irrefutable, subtle signs
that it’s not going to change
soon anytime
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3. |
Jack's Words
03:44
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it’s a lonely dark night
will we use our lives?
I’ve tried to make it happen
so many times
will we waste our days?
always doing the same
wanting other lives
but not other names
I’ve listened to Jack’s words
of wasting days blurred
we were waiting for something
that had already occurred
I know what love’s like now
but what I don’t know is how
one-sided love seems to
drag itself out
it’s all ok
if I just remember
in a few months
it’ll be December
the time of year
early hours slow down
the welcome of bed
signals sundown
-
just remember Jack’s words
and stay ’til the end
you won’t want to worry
your friends.
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4. |
The Last Summer
03:17
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nothing happened this summer
what should I expect
my friends have other plans
why can’t it be perfect
don’t know what I’m waiting for
staring at the wall
just want something to happen
anything at all
can we go somewhere new?
it doesn’t have to be far
I just want to get away
and lie beneath the stars
we could climb on the roof
and talk for a bit
it doesn’t have to be deep
just want some memories
can we please just do something
before the moment’s gone
this is the last summer
before we all move on
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5. |
Downfall
03:18
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what am I doing here?
watching my joy disappear
nothings the same anymore
I can’t even play simple chords
what's your happiest thing?
what kinda feelings does it bring?
I’ve been numb for so long now
that I just don’t ever feel anything
searching for something to make a change
losing grasp and slowly slipping away
nothing I’ve tried has worked so far
now I’m wishing for help from the stars
seasons come and go
meanings soon will show
of things I’ve been told before
things I should really be looking for
phrases repeated again
worn-out oldest friends
time and time again
“get out of your daydream!”
searching for something to make a change
losing grasp and slowly slipping away
everything I’ve tried has failed
it’s always lost in details
hoping for something to make a change
leaving home and slowly slipping away
I don’t know if anything works at all
this could be my downfall
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6. |
Kissing @ 4am
02:46
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the party's burned out
most people've gone home
but we're still dancing
to music on our own
but it's been turned off now
and we need to settle down
we say our goodnights
and thanks for love found
I've rolled out the sleeping bag
sleeping on the floor
the girls are in the other room
but you creep through the door
and lie down on the floor with me
you're kinda drunk still
I don't know what you see in me
but your will is your will
now we're kissing at 4am
the others won't wake 'til 10
not sure if I'm into you
maybe we'll all pull through
but the party last night was great
we started drinking vodka at 8
but back to the here & now
I'm kissing but I don't know how
my thoughts should be on you
but my mind is elsewhere
this night happened suddenly
I went in without a care
now I think I don't know you
the differences between us
we're not going to become a thing
i shouldn't care because now
we're kissing at 4am
the others won't wake 'til 10
not sure if I'm into you
maybe we'll all pull through
but the party last night was great
we started drinking vodka at 8
but back to the here & now
I'm kissing but I don't know how
we're kissing at 4am
the others won't wake 'til 10
not sure if I'm into you
maybe we'll all pull through
but the party last night was great
we started drinking vodka at 8
but back to the here & now
I'm kissing but I don't know how
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7. |
Head in the Clouds
02:33
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8. |
Arinbionardottir
02:41
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pretending avatars are fake
identities and names
thinking it’s too late
for my skin to change
was it fate?
too long to wait
pills can’t mend
the hole I’m trying to create
Arin
you stood for something
I couldn’t tell anyone
how it pained me
Arin
you were more than a front
you were a symbol
you were me
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9. |
Party Dysphoria
03:43
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of course it’s exactly how I thought it would be
coming to this party alone
knowing I would not be able to talk to
anyone at all
sat on the sofa as faces pass me by
some I do not recognise
this bottle of vodka is gonna be my
closest friend tonight
how did I think this was gonna go down
other than like this mess that I’m in
thinking to myself if anyone would notice
if I left in this din
why does this happen to me everytime
I go to parties alone
why don’t I make friends and chat all night
instead of going home
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10. |
6886
03:18
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we met when we were 5
for years apart we thrived
in 2009
your path joined with mine
came round once a week
Leon wants you to peak
wanna keep up the streak
so you don’t appear weak
you joined scouts with me
with kids out of reach
full of older bullies
you went about it carefree
time passed so quickly
more memories weekly
by the time it ended
you were best friends with me
6886
my very best friend
how did our friendship
peak in 2010?
drifting apart
is part of growing up
drifting away
run out of luck
6886
haven’t met since 16
but I still remember
writing “The Vending Machine”
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11. |
My Tower
05:00
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far in the sky is a place I call home
a place to myself, to sit quiet and alone
no one can reach me, in my mind so full
my tower holds my thoughts wrapped in wool
far in the clouds is where I go to dream
to get away from earth, bursting at the seams
no one can reach me, not even my friends
maybe that’s why it always ends
up in the sky is where I stay awake at night
wondering if my future is so bright
sunrise greets me, starting a new day
my tower is where I’ll forever stay
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